Missing School

Having been out of school for two months and getting a taste of the feeling of being a student today made me long for my academic days. Most of my graduating class met today to discuss our internships/fieldwork. I had a relaxed morning of waking up at 8:00am versus my normal 5:00am arousal time. I was able to squeeze in errands and chores that I am normally too tired from work or too busy to do. I long for the days that I had time to do stuff during the day. Maybe I will choose to work part-time or per diem when I officially get a job.

It was really nice to hear other students share some of their frustrations they are dealing with, as well as positive aspects of working as an OT. Most of us have had similar experiences with being challenged and experiencing how rewarding it is to work with people. I felt less isolated to hear that other people felt similar ways to the unique experience of being an "intern". Having other peers around is therapeutic.

I miss the camaraderie that came with seeing the same group of peers day in and day out. I like having people around me that know me. I feel that I have to start all over when it comes to making "work friends". My fieldwork site is temporary and thus am hesitant to put much effort into forming lasting relationships. Also, it takes some time to develop friendships and feel I don't have the opportunity.

I'm sure I'm having a grass-is-always-greener moment. When I was in school I couldn't wait to be done with it. Now, I'm in this weird holding place where I'm neither in school or working. I'm just paying my dues.