I have something that I am learning about myself as a person in this internship. That is when someone wants to criticize me, my reaction is to explain my reasoning. However, that comes off as being defensive. How do I learn to shut my mouth and take what is being told to me? By acknowledging this aspect of my personality, I hope that I can be more mindful when someone calls me out. The person saying whatever they are saying has a reason and their perceptive should be respected. I need to exercise more self control.
In the last week or two (ever since I left a towel on the floor in the shower room) I have been heavily supervised. When that is the case, I somehow end up making more mistakes. I know that I have performance anxiety and so when someone is really testing and observing me, I constantly screw up. Today that happened and I attribute part of my mistakes to not having control over my schedule. Since I am really supervised my supervisor basically tells me what will or won't work for her in her schedule. I didn't have enough time to prepare for my group, get my notes done, and do an Individual treatment session in one hour. As a result, I was running late, and I forgot to get equipment. Where's your head at Lee-Anne? I've got to get it together, and be able to change gears as I shift into the next activity of my day. (Justification/Defense: I had a pt in the morning who was crying about having to stay at MC and I was trying to resolve the issue).
Sigh, two more days left for the week.
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